I'm starting to get into anime/manga, thanks to G.'s influence... but G.'s not an online kind of person, oddly enough. Complete Japanophile, but allergic to the 'net. Someday G. will travel to the Land of the Rising Sun, and then I fear we will never see her again...

She's got me watching what I can of Hunter X Hunter on the Youtube. She meant to get me fansubs from her "connections," but that's taking too long. I am impatient!

C. didn't let me down. E. is going to be harder to work with. Stuffy bitch.

...okay, probably shouldn't get all mad, but for serious, girl. Knock it off. I'm trying to stop swearing so much and you're mashing all my buttons.

Wish I had more time for this. You'd think I would, since I have my own computer now, but... :\ Just isn't happening.

Gotta talk to C. about our assignment. I know he won't make me do all the work, but it'd be nice if he could get off his ass and actually set up a time for us to meet and get this done.

It's been a tough week. Being necessarily cryptic, I will just say that there will be a time when I don't shut up and take it.

...I sound like a dumb, wannabe rebellious teen. Well, I feel sulky enough to be one.

I hate to use this LJ just to be angsty. Maybe I should start posting quizzes.

Actually, yes, I'd love to hang out with you guys. I would like to go on all the zany trips and everything.

BUT I HAVE A JOB, AND YOU KNOW IT. STFU.

I was raised Lutheran, but I just can't handle the idea of an eternal hell. I can handle the idea of nothingness, an end, better than eternal punishment for being a human being who makes mistakes. So while Jesus is still my homeboy, I don't believe in one true god, maker of heaven and earth.

I honor a few deities, in my own way. Jesus Christ and Avalokitesvara are two holy human beings I have lots of love for. Compassion and a willingness to help others, even if that means more suffering for themselves, is the driving force behind that love. I have great respect for the Buddhas, too, but they're... kind of beyond love. :\ They're kind of beyond comprehension, too.

I'm also fascinated by the Crow (of Northwest Native American tradition) and Anansi. I like trickster gods, it seems. Actually, I think I like gods who create, or facilitate creation, and gods who parcel out stories. All stories are Anansi's, you know. ;)

I also have a kappa statue in my home, because I can't get away from tricksters. The kappa is a lesser spirit, though--a water demon, a kind of sprite. Lesser spirits are as far as I dare travel into the Shinto pantheon. I'm not Japanese enough for them to bother with me, I think. :p Besides, from what I understand, they limit their power to Japan and their favors to the Japanese.

I don't really want anything to do with a god who demands a great deal of my attention. A god who, metaphorically, sidles into my consciousness, who doesn't care what I'm up to unless one of us needs something (and sometimes not even then, if it's something I need XP) is the kind of god I like. I want to be on "good terms" with a god (or gods) who are off doing their own thing, and find me and me exploits amusing in an affectionate sort of way, but don't get involved unless I can't extricate myself (and then only if I really can't extricate myself, not when I just feel as if I can't, and then only if they feel like it).

That's why I love the busy tricksters, and the busy saviors. They'll smile on you when you get their attention, but they'll let you do your own thing and be your own person. They don't give you a purpose: you know your purpose. You honor them by knowing they're around somewhere, and you worship them by living your life as best you can.

Anyway. That's how far I've come in my spiritual life so far. :) Next time: thoughts on Good VS. Evil and Destiny/Fate!

There's not much going on in my life to post about, really. :\ Mostly I'm here because, while I don't subscribe to the belief that it takes a village to raise a child, I do believe that it takes a community to raise a human being. And, more importantly, it takes a varied community that presents options and different modes of thought to raise a fully capable and intelligent human individual.

Unfortunately, there's not a whole lot of variety where I'm from. I've got to take it where I can get it. I'm settin' sail on the internets! :D

Well, here I am, all squeaky-clean in LJ-land. :) Time to find me some communities to play around in, am I right?